i need a answer

In my opinion, i think me and ibam was in love with each other we do care about each other but.... just being in love not enough to keep us together. but now everything changes... i do madly deeply in love with him i swear i do. but it wasn't enough for us or him just being in love with each other, we need to more to survive but we wasn't trying enough to make it work. Since everything was a messed i don't really know what to do, it's like every thing falls apart and i don't want to be a part of anything, i want to be numb. i'm trying not to care but it hard, lately i've been bad mood feels like wanna killing someone and i put my badmood on my friends i dont know why. but it feels that way. all in my head is full of question what if who why blabla yes many questioned and un answered. i need a answer.