goodbye

well he find my weakness.... yes loosing him is my weakness. i do love him with all my heart, and you know every words i type its like coming from my heart. i wish he could understand me, i always wondering what going on at his mind when he decide to broke up. does he want to make things right for us or not? is he doesn't want to make it through together? does he love me less that he couldn't watch me change and make things like it was supposed to be? does he want me to suffer? yes i feel this great lost when he say goodbye. i still remember the face he made when he told me it over especially the words it keep on coming back, to be honest everyday i feel guilty because i never could make him happy and i was hurting him. it was the worst feeling ever. everyday i wake up and have this guilt that keep on getting bigger and bigger. i know i could never ever have him back but i would love a second chance. actually ...... i want to pertahanin my relationship with him. he was the only boy that makes me feel like i'm good enough for somebody but apparently i'm not. i'm not even good enough for him i will never be good enough for anybody else. well i'm sorry bam like im really sorry alligator, my ibrahim arimurti rashad my oliver sykes. :'(