i've just realize something from a song.... well it's about Ibam like of course. but ... i was realize i was the one who getting in his way, i'm nothing to him. i'm just somebody who messing with him. i wasn't expect anything from this song.. but well i'm realize. i'm done with you, even though i love you so much its better to leave you alone.
i know this thing happen because of me. yep this is my mistake and there's nothing else i can do. it hurt so bad letting you go, but if you're happy then i'm happy. it's okay bam, you didn't do anything wrong my dear, you were perfectly fine. you know what bam? you were the best :) as always you are.
Its okay there may not be another BamNuy789, but there will always be there deep down inside our mind&heart. I know you will find a better girl than me i guaranteed that. as much as it hurts seeing you go but now its my turn to letting you go. you're a free bird now. you know i will always be there for you, i'm always here waiting and watching you. i know you're gonna be okay, you're a big boy.
i cant expect things to be last, the things that happening between us makes me realize. nothing last. I'm watching us fall apart quickly, i didn't want this you know that. i'm sorry i made you loose my trust in me, i don't know what else to say, but i know it's all my mistake. i'm enough being a child, it's time for me to grow up. i need to pursue things that i want to achieve. i know i ain't good for you.
Nothing feel the same anymore between us, i do miss that. what else can i do bam? there's nothing left i can do. i was a loser being a sluty whore bitch and you were this awesome guy. i will never forget things that happened between us, like when the day we met at 7 grade. The way we fight about things that shouldn't be fighting about until we started to makin deket and talks aku/kamu for the first time, and the time where you used to say " aku mau kamu deh" and the time where satya told you that i have this massive crush on you, and when we watched movie etc. and of course when 6 August 2009 yes that night was magical too bad i fall a sleep-_- and 7 August fairytale. I do love everything,i do! when i'm with you, yes it was fun magical adventurous never dull at all. yes you're the one who makes me like i'm the most happiest girl in the entire world.
You're better off without me, i'm nothing to you. i'm just the one who nyusahin. its okay bam, i'm going to leave you alone. i'm sure i'm gonna terribly miss you a lot. but this is what you want right? me basically out of your life? right? oh well if this is what you want, your wish is my command alligator.
Haha funny bam i remember how you used to be jealous, you know what jealousy meanings right? fear of loosing someone. honey, you make me jealous all the time. insecurity of not being able to have any contact with you. i'm totally lonely without you, yes you always been that person who accompany me. ibam i wish i could fix your heart and gained your trust back, but anyway have a good life my dear ibam.
ohyeah i have this one wish for you.... be a good boy please. and stay away from smokes, etc. i know about you and your health thingy, and please don't do anything stupid that you might regret. and listen to your heart, and your secret about your sister&brother safe with me don't worry :) and ..... i wish for you full of happiness and joy even that happiness wasn't with me but with her. its okay as long as you're happy. and please stop doing bad things that effecting your health condition. i can live without you but i was a better person when you're around.
You inspire me, you're my role model bam i look up to you. i learn so much from you, and you were an awesome boyfriend and awesome friend. i know, i'm used to called you one of my best friend, but its kinda useless because... well you don't except that. but you're and always be. friendship are lasts longer than relationship. i'm used to talk to you about everything now i can't but thats okay. you will never be happy when you're with me, beside you already have her and we keep on going round and round its like a never ending battle we always end up to that road again, i just cant do it anymore even as much as i love you i'm just to weak to fight with this battle. i admit i'm not strong, i'm building this wall around me so nobody can hurt. i'm trying to be numb,you don't need me anymore and well... i'm happy for you. that's all i can say, let's move on and forget everything okay. started over if its possible, and bye ibam. i will be leaving soon i hope so. and your gonna be happy i know you will. yes you mr. okay byeee :* :* :* BIGGGG HUGSSS FOR YOUUUUU
LOVE YOU SO MUCH ALLIGATOR
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